So, I have no idea why I am so loved by God. Seriously...He speaks to me through so many ways and I just have to ask myself why does He work so hard to get through my hard head? Anyways, I am extremely grateful for the loving attention our God pays to me, and am humbled by His awareness of my needs.
Yesterday's post was kind of a downer... not kind of, it totally was. But, you know, as I said, missionary work is full of ups and downs. I have a book that I take to mass each day that has the readings of the day in English, because the mass here is said in Waray Waray. The book is called The Anawim Way, anawim is a word meaning poverty. It is printed here in the Philippines, and many times I have been taken aback by the inspirations in the meditations after the readings. Today's was especially powerful.
Yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed by the unfairness of life and devastating hardships the poor people of the third world have to suffer. I was feeling useless to help in any of the problems facing the people here.
This was the meditation for today:
"There are times when the burden of need and our own limitations might tempt us to become discouraged. But precisely then we are helped by the knowledge that, in the end, we are only instruments in the Lord's hands; and this knowledge frees us from the presumption of thinking that we alone are personally responsible for building a better world. In all humanity we will do what we can, and in all humanity we will entrust the rest to the Lord. It is God who governs the world, not we. We offer Him our service only to the extent that we can, and for as long as He grants us the strength. To do all we can with what strength we have, however, is the task which keeps us the good servant of Jesus Christ always at work: "The love of Christ urges us on" (2 Cor 5:14)"
The above was shared by Pope Benedict XVI in 2005 in the document Deus Caritas Est, 35)
You see, yesterday we went to an ordination and therefore the readings of the day weren't read, as for ordinations special readings are used, and tomorrow we are going to a funeral for the mother who died and her baby, so only today was I at mass reading from Anawim, and God, who ordains all things, saw fit to give me a boost when I needed it.
Not coincidence, but faith. When you can look at the world through eyes of faith, there is no end to the wonders you will see. My God loves me, and gives me daily proof of His concern for me. I have no idea why, but I'm going to stop asking and just accept His merciful and caring love of me.
Praise be to you, Lord Jesus Christ! Damo mga Salamat, ha Iyo Amon Namon!! Many thanks to you, Our Father!! xxoo
